Charlotte Rose Maxbauer

baby, i don’t care about your stomach

or your legs

or how big your boobs are

i don’t care about you at all

leave me alone

this is my favorite post.

4gifs: Twerkin on yo head

Wed, 15 May 2013 21:07:18 -0400

4gifs:

Twerkin on yo head

feminist-space: submissivefeminist: TW: Sexual Assault A...

Wed, 15 May 2013 21:00:12 -0400

feminist-space:

submissivefeminist:

TW: Sexual Assault

A friend of mine was sexually assaulted out to dinner with a professor. When she told her story to her adviser, a dear friend of ours, she told him she wore a turtleneck and long pants and described her outfit. He cut her off and told her, “I don’t care if you were wearing a fucking bikini—nobody has the right to touch you.”

I think that was the first time in the whole process of talking to cops and administrators about what happened where someone actually told her it wasn’t her fault.

They make it about the clothes, the situation—“Why did you agree to dinner? Why didn’t you take your own car? Did you lead him on? For once, someone made it about her and her rights. I think this helped her most of all in the process. Everyone needs to respond like this to survivors, in my opinion.

I’m so sorry about your friend, OP. Props to her advisor (and you!) for being supportive and understanding what rape culture means—and saying “fuck this shit, NOBODY HAS THE RIGHT TO TOUCH YOU.”

Can Facebook Junkies, Twitter Twats, and Tumblr Addicts all be friends?

Wed, 08 May 2013 20:42:59 -0400

Can Facebook Junkies, Twitter Twats, and Tumblr Addicts all be friends?

Life after attempted suicide

Wed, 08 May 2013 00:05:22 -0400

This is something I’ve wanted to do for a long time, but always seemed to put off.

I’ve recently been really down about my life and a lot of things going on right now.

I feel very forgotten by many people who once called themselves my friends.

so, i need a little venting space. I decided to post this and do not regret it. I am me.

If anyone reads this, maybe you’ll learn a bit about me you never knew.

(song playing: Falling Down- Duran Duran)

Well, I know that I have accomplished more in this past year than I ever have before, and I have never been prouder than myself than I am right now. A year ago, I didn’t even think I was going to graduate High School. I year ago, I wasn’t planning on living past graduation if I did. A year ago, I was a much different person than what I am today.

I can only assume that many people know about my “dark ages”. This was the time of my life where I first Moved to my fathers house in Waterford and my family hoped I could start a new life for myself.

That was something, I wouldn’t allow for myself. I was being led along on a path I am so happy I didn’t fall down.

I thought I was so far gone I tried many times to commit suicide, but failed in a storm of tears. Going to school was an absolute terror for me. Every day I saw judging faces pass me, staring at me- and that is the saddest emptiest feeling in the world. No one knew what I was going trough at the time, but they didn’t care. I would go home, and cry everyday, every night-until i slipped into my only form of relief- absolute dreamless, felling-less sleep. I never thought it would end. If I didn’t have my family to back me, I know I would be dead by now. When I was finally coherent enough to understand I needed to be myself and make my own decisions is when my life began changing, if not slowly. I got back into something I loved to do, dramatic theater. I never got another role, but I met a lot of good people and began opening myself back up to the world. I was still on anti-depressants and still had bad spells. I didn’t go out after school, but that was my own doing. about a year ago is when everything seemed to take another round on the roller coaster of hell that is life.

I had my first official boyfriend ever this time last year.

He helped me speak up about what happened more than anyone ever had.

Stress began building in me as I had no idea what I was prepared for. I was going to school, working, had a boyfriend and now a court case. Then three things hit my in the face in one day. one, I was broken up with. two, I lost my job. three, i had to talk to the person who had hurt me more than anyone ever had before.

all in one day.

I was also not doing that great in school. But I pushed. I will always be so so happyl to have the step mother I do because I have no idea what I would be doing with my life to this day. She stood by my side, even when I had hurt her so badly. Out of all the terrible things I have ever done That will be one of my greatest regrets, that I ever hurt her. You have always been there for me Tina and I will be forever great full. I love you.

When I finally realized I was going to Graduate, the next thing was, what am i going to do after high school?

Depression hit me wildly, but I tried to hide it as best as I could. I felt alienated from many of my Many friends I had recently made, and slowly began Isolating myself from the lives of others. I began taking more pictures of my friends and family and myself, so that when I finally let myself go, anyone who cared would have something to remember me by. I even had a date set. June 15th, 2010. That was the day I planned on absolutely ending my life.

It wasn’t because I was being treated any differently by my friends, family, or anything- I was just lost. Court was bringing up a lot of things I wished I could just forget about. But I couldn’t stand the fact that It could happen to anyone else. I was scared.

I was done.

I needed a friend.

I felt like I had pushed myself away from everyone who was there for me to begin with.

I felt worthless, Pointless, a waste of space.

empty.

In a bizarre turn of events, I turned to facebook.

I didn’t have a facebook, and had lost contact with all the people I grew up with just after the end of my freshmen year. Floods of people asking how I’ve been and people flocking to hear about my life and what I was up to gave me the attention I seemed to be craving. People genuinely wanted to know how I was. I’m not sure I can properly explain, but I caught up with people who actually helped me through my childhood- and one who seemed to care more than I expected.

My now boyfriend of 10 months has helped my through my life transition.

from post graduation stress, to courtroom stress, downright fear, comforting, loving, and meeting my parents- he has been there. I don’t know if it was fate that we officially started dating the day after I planned on ending my life, but as that day came and left, I felt hope. That hope has let me through some of though roughest points, and is still is helping my push.

During the dark time in my life, i was told specific plans would occur in my life. No surprises. That was just it.

I would be married on my 18th birthday.

I would be a stay at home mother.

I would not graduate high school

I would not go to any other school.

I would not have a job or ever have to work for anything ever.

and let me tell you,

My 19th birthday is this week.

I am in an amazing relationship with someone who really loves me, looks out for me, believes in me, and just wants me to be happy no matter what.

I am Not married, nor do I need to be at 19 years of age yet.

I am NOT a mother.

I DID graduate High School.

I AM starting college to become a Science Teacher in June.

I HAVE my own place to call home.

I WORK everyday, and PUSH for my goals instead of having them blatantly handed to me.

and,

even though life is so damn hard right now,

I am happy, and wouldn’t trade it for the world.

sure life is hard, I still cry. We all cry.

But I have life to look forward to.

There are so many possibilities of my life changing.

I never in a million years would have thought that I would be living in Illinois in my won apartment, working at Meijer, with an amazing boyfriend, and starting college soon.

I can honestly say I am proud of myself.

Me.

I have never been able to actually say that.

This is MY life, I control this roller coaster, and I expect to have a lot of fun before my ride is over.

I wrote this back in 2011 to remind myself of how much i had accomplished in such a short time.

Update: I am still with the amazing guy who stuck with me through all our hardships and we are getting married in less than 2 months.

Still not a mother, still working every day. I needed to post this to remind myself of everything I have accomplished.

It’s okay to be pale. Pale is different.

Sun, 05 May 2013 23:48:11 -0400

It’s okay to be pale.

Pale is different.

My eyes have seen some pretty fucked up shit.

Sun, 05 May 2013 23:46:48 -0400

My eyes have seen some pretty fucked up shit.

knockturrn: rudeandgingerdoctor: 221cbakerstreet: chickensbutt...

Sun, 05 May 2013 23:45:32 -0400

knockturrn:

rudeandgingerdoctor:

221cbakerstreet:

chickensbuttegg:

Daniel Radcliffe on Regis and Kelly in 2001, 2005 and 2009.

I appreciate you never growing up

The Seven Shittiest Sins

Sun, 05 May 2013 23:45:17 -0400

Greed: I want shit
Envy: I want your shit
Wrath: I'm going to wreck your shit
Lust: I'm into some freaky shit
Gluttony: This is some tasty shit
Sloth: I don't feel like doing shit
Pride: I am the shit

WHAT IS YOUR EARLIEST HUMAN MEMORY?

Sun, 05 May 2013 23:43:56 -0400

Probably either choking on a wood chip when i was 2 years old

When I was a child I was told, “the sky’s the...

Sun, 05 May 2013 23:33:44 -0400

When I was a child I was told, “the sky’s the limit”.
But that was a lie.
Truth is, there IS no limit.

When I was a child I was told, “the sky’s the...

Sun, 05 May 2013 23:29:41 -0400

When I was a child I was told, “the sky’s the limit”.
But that was a lie.
Truth is, there IS no limit.

geeksotospeak: 99 percent of the times i see a cat, i have to drop whatever the hell i’m doing and...

Fri, 03 May 2013 00:35:27 -0400

geeksotospeak:

99 percent of the times i see a cat, i have to drop whatever the hell i’m doing and acknowledge that there’s a cat and say hi to the cat and walk up to the cat and try to pet the cat

When I see another human, I do exactly the opposite of this.

what does that make me?

piesexualdean: turtwink: does medusa have pubes and if so are they snakes too

Fri, 03 May 2013 00:32:22 -0400

piesexualdean:

turtwink:

does medusa have pubes and if so are they snakes too

morgrana: when your friend does a fandom reference at you and you don’t get it the first time

Fri, 03 May 2013 00:28:45 -0400

morgrana:

when your friend does a fandom reference at you and you don’t get it the first time

Charlotte Rose Maxbauer

swiftingthrough: let’s remember this

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4gifs: Twerkin on yo head

feminist-space: submissivefeminist: TW: Sexual Assault A...

Can Facebook Junkies, Twitter Twats, and Tumblr Addicts all be friends?

Life after attempted suicide

It’s okay to be pale. Pale is different.

My eyes have seen some pretty fucked up shit.

knockturrn: rudeandgingerdoctor: 221cbakerstreet: chickensbutt...

The Seven Shittiest Sins

WHAT IS YOUR EARLIEST HUMAN MEMORY?

When I was a child I was told, “the sky’s the...

When I was a child I was told, “the sky’s the...

geeksotospeak: 99 percent of the times i see a cat, i have to drop whatever the hell i’m doing and...

piesexualdean: turtwink: does medusa have pubes and if so are they snakes too

morgrana: when your friend does a fandom reference at you and you don’t get it the first time

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